the devil’s hour

i know i shouldn’t but im sorta missing insomnia. more specifically the part where i wake up randomly at 4 am and im just up for a bit. i still hate that when i tried to go asleep, my mind would be buzzing with thoughts (its calmed down now) but the part where im alone and its all dark and im just laying on the couch… thats the life.

its not really a joy anymore if its a working/school day. now im just missing out on sleep